Do you feel embarrassed in public?

What would make you feel embarrassed in public?

Oddly enough I feel embarrassed in public all the time. I never feel at ease. I have always been aware of my appearance and presence... aware not comfortable. I have held myself to a standard that I could not continue to maintain and now I have completely reached the bottom. No seriously I haven’t reached the bottom. Close but not the bottom.

My body has rebelled after 45 years. It is hard to imagine that I made it quite this far. Certain people are aware of some of the things I have done…some have been active in the debauchery – a party to the party. So when all is said and done… I had fun.

Laughing in the face of fate…little did I know that when I said that my greatest fear would be to wake up old. I would soon face my fear.